Little White Lie

Temptation. Struggle. Entrapment. Caught up in a net. Hit and sunk. 

Today was one of those days. It was only a "little white lie" and I felt sick over it. Lately, I've been forgetting my keys for work. It happened when I put the keys in a coat pocket, but then didn't wear that same coat the next day. Then I'd put them on a key ring but didn't take that same car. Next I put them in a purse but didn't take that same purse. Then I took them off the key ring for fear of leaving or losing it somewhere outside of home or work and simply forgot to take it off the kay holder in the morning. Now I feel like it's almost happening weekly. Unfortunately, at my work, you need a key for everything--get in, get out, each building, mailroom, etc. Today was another day that I forgot my set of work keys on the key holder. Every time I'm rushing and don't remember until I'm halfway or even in the parking lot. 

How was I going to get this set of keys without enduring embarrassment or lying? I was already embarrassed just knowing I had forgotten them again without even telling anyone. Now I was fighting the all too familiar urge to fudge the truth a even a little bit just to take the edge off. I thought I was done with this "fix."

I went to my supervisor as asked for a spare set of keys... because... my keys were sticking in the doors. She chuckled and commented on the key issues I've been having lately to which I responded that I was really embarrassed over that too. What was I afraid of? Did I really need to lie? Was I afraid of getting written up? It doesn't sound like she would have, but even if she had, does that worth compromising my convictions and who I am in Christ? Oh, that sick feeling in my stomach...

So I went on a walk during my break to run to the Father. Repent. Ask for forgiveness. Remembering His blood was shed for all sin past and present... Reminding myself that faith in Him is what He is asking of me... So, I put my faith in Him again to free me from the condemnation of sin and all the guilt and shame that comes with it. After that I heard Him or His angels singing this song over me:

"He does not deal with you according to your sin..."

He does not deal with me according to my sin. I looked up Psalm 103 and read the whole thing with v. 7-14 being highlighted to me: 

He revealed his character to Moses
    and his deeds to the people of Israel.
8 The Lord is compassionate and merciful,
    slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.
9 He will not constantly accuse us,
    nor remain angry forever.
10 He does not punish us for all our sins;
    he does not deal harshly with us, as we deserve.
11 For his unfailing love toward those who fear him
    is as great as the height of the heavens above the earth.
12 He has removed our sins as far from us
    as the east is from the west.
13 The Lord is like a father to his children,
    tender and compassionate to those who fear him.
14 For he knows how weak we are;
    he remembers we are only dust.

Thank you, Lord, for reminding me of who You are and who I am in You.